October 2006

Wow. I had such a bad attitude tonight working at the coffee cart during the evening service. I was irritated by everything it seemed. I don’t think I said more than five words the entire time. I was being a brat.
“I’m tired.”
“I want to go home.”
“People are bothering me.”
“I don’t feel good. I had a huge lunch and now I feel sick.”
Whah whah. Those were only a few of my complaints and thoughts throughout the evening. And then God decided to teach me a little lesson.
On the way back from the service we saw a woman standing near the off ramp where we exit to get to our warm apartment. She was holding out a cup asking for change. Kim and I didn’t have any change and we lived nearby, so I decided to pack some staples from our place and run it back to her. When I got to her, I could smell the alcohol on her breath and it looked like she hadn’t showered for some time. She gratefully accepted the bag of goodies I gave her and I asked her name. Her name is Rose. When I asked her how she ended up on the streets she tearfully shared that her baby boy had just died a few weeks ago from SIDS. A week later the father of her child left her. She was from Oregon and had followed her boyfriend down to California to start a new life with their son. She didn’t think she had anything to live for. She wanted to throw herself on the nearby train tracks. She didn’t have any family. She was depressed and alone. She said she had let herself do anything to get by since the death of her son and had turned to alcohol to help ease her pain. The alcohol obviously wasn’t helping very much because Rose was in turmoil as she shared her story.

And there I was, minutes before, having a “rough night”. I complained about my stomache feeling too full. Rose began eating the food I gave her immediately because she hadn’t eated in awhile. I complained about being around too many people. Rose was sobbing because she felt like she was completely alone. I had the audacity to criticize a worship song as I heard around me people singing about God’s love being poured down over them. I know Jesus Christ. I know His love and the peace He gives. I chose pride rather than thanking and gratefully worshipping Him. Rose said she hadn’t known God loved her. I’m sick with how much I take knowing Him for granted. He is so amazing.

Anyway, I called the police once I got back to my apartment. I was concerned that she might do something crazy in her state of mind and figured that at least they can help her get to a shelter. I hope she’s ok. My heart goes out to her. Needless to say, this has been an eventful evening and will probably be another sleepless night. But you know what? I can’t complain.


I’m sticky and smell like coffee. It’s midnight and I’m not tired whatsoever. I don’t know exactly what to write about. I guess I’ll just write what is in my head at the moment.

Ok, so I’m looking at this really cool painting that a guy from Sandals had painted after his experience in Africa. I was really excited about seeing more work from this guy because he’s quite the artist from what I’ve heard. The point is, I’m not going to see it. Why you ask? Well, his work was going to be shown after the screening of Invisible Children that Sandals was going to be showing. Unfortunately, the screening is not taking place anymore. I’m sad about this fact because Invisible Children is a powerful documentary that has been so useful in waking up tired and apathetic minds to care about what is going on around the world, particularly the civil war in Uganda that has lasted for over 20 years. Sandals Church is a church blessed with a ton of resources. Be it the arts, the intellect, the passion, the gifts, the $$$$, we have the GOD GIVEN ability to meet a lot of needs as a congregation.

With all of that being said, Invisible Children isn’t a priority at the moment within the lives of Sandals church. I wish it was. It will be an exciting day when the people of Sandals will be ignited with such a passion to reach the hurting, hungry, sick, and poor because they’re so excited to surrender their lives to God NO MATTER THE COST that they can’t keep it contained within Riverside but are burning with a passion to take His good news everywhere.

I’m getting tired now. I need to sleep. I hope everyone has a fun Halloween. I’m curious to know what you did as a kid for Halloween? Trick or treating? Church Harvest Festval? Costumes?

I ride this beauty to and from work every day. I don’t have a car so I opted more or less for the RTA system. I’m spending $31.00 a month on transportation. In California that is a miracle!

I’m reading Pride and Prejudice right now and I’m enjoying it so much! Most people I know who have read it have mostly enjoyed the love story between Elizabeth Bennett and Mr. Darcy. To be honest, that was the very reason I had never read the book but I’ve been pleasantly surprised at how much I’ve taken away from the read so far. The romance can be appreciated by others. I, for one, appreciate how Jane Austen portrays relationships when they are lived out in the choice of pride or humility. Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy hurt themselves and eachother more than once by choosing their pride. It got me thinking how I live my life and how I approach people. If you haven’t read it, READ IT! And please, try to see the message Jane Austen is trying to communicate. I promise, it’s better than your typical love story.

Kim is talking to Derek right now. They’re getting married soon. I still remember when Derek came over to the R.A office to visit Kim our sophmore year and made her a sandwich because she mentioned in passing that she was hungry. What he didn’t realize in that fateful moment, is that our group of friends are ALWAYS hungry which enlisted him later on to become the chef for our apartment.

…I don’t know why I chose to blog about them. Kim gets quite a bit of exposure on my blog. I tend to write about my friends when I can’t think of anything else I would like to write about…

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I’ve been really blessed to see and learn from a couple who have diligently lifted up God’s reknown through their relationship. I am excited to see how they will further pursue His glory and be His glory as they become more like Him in a relationship that is so sanctifying. All this to say, I’m really excited for their wedding!

I had my first day of work yesterday and, overall, I would say it was a good time. Imagine if you will a manager who sounds like the guy from the Clear Eyes eyedrops commercials and a nervous twenty-something who reads everything in the manual outloud who made the seemingly unemotional Clear Eyes manager make strange faces at him as he read (we were all reading silently by the way). It was hilarious! While we were reading through the manual I had to bite the inside of my cheek more than once to control my laughter. I thought to myself “You are going to like it here.” I don’t know what it is but I love awkwardness and awkward people. I was enjoying my quirky co-workers thoroughly! I think I’m going to have fun working with everyone.

On to some not so new news, I really love and miss India. I thought I would include a picture of my supervisor’s children Anjuli and Joanna. They’re so cute and to be honest, I thought of them when I was thinking of awkward people I know. You see, these are what we call “third culture kids”. They’re from one culture, raised in another culture, without ever really fitting in with either side thus forming their own third culture. It’s not a put down. They’re awesome kids who would make any parent really blessed. But let’s face it, they’re awkward. I love them. 🙂

I got the job!! Steve, my new boss, called today to offer me a position at Barnes and Noble. I start Thursday!

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